20100728

meh

i hate meh. it sucks. then after the meh creeps in the paranoia. which sucks even more.

That is all.

20100724

so, the bible says you can't be gay...

In her radio show, Dr. Laura Schlesinger said that, as an observant Orthodox Jew, homosexuality is an abomination according to Leviticus 18:22, and cannot be condoned under any circumstance.
The following response is an open letter to Dr. Laura, penned by a U.S. resident, which was posted on the Internet.

Dear Dr. Laura:

Thank you for doing so much to educate people regarding God's Law.
I have learned a great deal from your show, and try to share that
knowledge with as many people as I can. When someone tries to
defend the homosexual lifestyle, for example, I simply remind them
that Leviticus 18:22 clearly states it to be an abomination ... End
of debate.

I do need some advice from you, however, regarding some other
elements of God's Laws and how to follow them.

1. Leviticus 25:44 states that I may possess slaves, both male and
female, provided they are purchased from neighboring nations. A
friend of mine claims that this applies to Mexicans, but not
Canadians. Can you clarify? Why can't I own Canadians?

2. I would like to sell my daughter into slavery, as sanctioned in
Exodus 21:7. In this day and age, what do you think would be a
fair price for her?

3. I know that I am allowed no contact with a woman while she is in
her period of Menstrual uncleanliness - Lev.15: 19-24. The problem
is how do I tell? I have tried asking, but most women take offense.

4. When I burn a bull on the altar as a sacrifice, I know it
creates a pleasing odor for the Lord - Lev.1:9. The problem is my
neighbors. They claim the odor is not pleasing to them. Should I
smite them?

5. I have a neighbor who insists on working on the Sabbath. Exodus
35:2 clearly states he should be put to death. Am I morally
obligated to kill him myself, or should I ask the police to do it?

6. A friend of mine feels that even though eating shellfish is an
abomination, Lev. 11:10, it is a lesser abomination than
homosexuality. I don't agree. Can you settle this? Are there
'degrees' of abomination?

7. Lev. 21:20 states that I may not approach the altar of God if I
have a defect in my sight. I have to admit that I wear reading
glasses. Does my vision have to be 20/20, or is there some
wiggle-room here?

8. Most of my male friends get their hair trimmed, including the
hair around their temples, even though this is expressly forbidden
by Lev. 19:27. How should they die?

9. I know from Lev. 11:6-8 that touching the skin of a dead pig
makes me unclean, but may I still play football if I wear gloves?

10. My uncle has a farm. He violates Lev.19:19 by planting two
different crops in the same field, as does his wife by wearing
garments made of two different kinds of thread (cotton/polyester
blend). He also tends to curse and blaspheme a lot. Is it really
necessary that we go to all the trouble of getting the whole town
together to stone them? Lev.24:10-16. Couldn't we just burn them to
death at a private family affair, like we do with people who sleep
with their in-laws? (Lev. 20:14)

I know you have studied these things extensively and thus enjoy
considerable expertise in such matters, so I'm confident you can
help.

Thank you again for reminding us that God's word is eternal and
unchanging.

Your adoring fan.

James M. Kauffman,
Ed.D. Professor Emeritus,
Dept. Of Curriculum, Instruction, and Special Education
University of Virginia

(It would be a damn shame if we couldn't own a Canadian :)

20100723

i think this is why

i have always hated studying english literature. I love words, and i love books. i particularly love poetry, with it's rhythms and melodies and imagery.
I love T.S.Eliot. i used his works as the basis of art works in high school, specifically Rhapsody on a Windy Night.
right now he is hurting me.
I am struggling to write an essay about "the fragmentation and failure of identity in the modern city", in reference to the work of T.S. Eliot. i "get" his work, i understand what he is saying to me, but i understand it in imagery and art work, not fragmentation and failure of identity. and it was pointed out to me tonight that my biggest issue/block with this is that i don;t want to face my own identity or lack there of. and that is true and correct. I am fairly aware of the fact that there are things in my life that i "handle" that i should probably go and deal with. do i have a sense of abandonment that means i fear commitment? or am i just using that as an excuse to make myself feel better about being the dumpER, rather than the dumpEE. have those two nights of drunken misadventure as a teen had a bigger and deeper impact on my life than i recognise. i don;t know, and i am scared to find out. i am scared to discuss these issues with anyone who may be able to give me the answers. scared to find out the truth. I handle my emotions, my possible (but mostly undiagnosed) depression. I have a good strong brain that makes me get through the days, and i feel both the highs and lows of emotion, but not in a manic way. but am i just handling something that i really should be dealing with? would my life be that much different if i went to see a professional about this and discovered that, yes, i do have issues that need to be brought up and discussed, and put to bed. or maybe i have no issues and i am just a psychiatric hypochondriac.

But i'm scared to find out.

that is all.