whats wrong

with me.
this time makes three.
i like you, but not enough. oh wait, maybe i do. no hang on, i don't, sorry bout that. 3 women in my life have done this to me. the first time we followed that up with 2 more years, the second time i apparently became such a completely unacceptable social leper that there is barely a friendship, and now this time. i don't want to lose, but i don't know how to play it so i don't.do i hold back so she misses me and there fore wants to come back? but what if she decides she can do without me? do i give her the closeness i know she wants? that she practically asked for? but if i give her that why would sh edecide to come back? she can get nealry everything she wants from me without having to committ... i'm just confused and sad. i don't know how to play to win.