untitled is still a title

abandonment
violence
letting go
stepping back so i don't have to be pushed.
these are things i have to look into. i want to turn my brain off. i need something mindless and all consuming. i wish i could meditate, but i can't stop my mind. i need to play a sport. as an outlet. i have karate. maybe i'll go home and do a class on my own. that would probably be a good thing right now. something to concentrate on other than the issues above.

that is all