the world is unfair in my favour

and yet i still think it's unfair. i got a really good mark in my final assignment. really. SOOOO much better than i thought i would. it was apparently my best work.

now here is my problem. i don't think i earned the mark i got. i did some work, but i'm sure there were people in the class who worked WAY harder than me. i have a brain, it obviously works well. i went to a selective high school and we were all marked at a very high standard, as you would expect when you are in a school that is apparently made up of the top 2% of the state brain wise... to do well in that environment you really had to work hard.
now i am being marked in, what i will term, a very comprehensive fashion. against a class that fits the societal average brain wise.

and it's freaking me out because i don't feel like i have earned the mark i got. seriously, i was almost not going to hand anything in because i felt i had really flunked it. it was a bad week, my heart wasn't in it. i considered putting in a request for compassionate consideration.

but i handed it in, and got a high distinction which i will not be complaining about.

but it still feels unfair, even if it is in my favour...

that is all.